So, a New Year's come and gone and I think I'm still stuck. I don't feel like going forward, turning back is definitely not an option. Maybe I should change. Maybe I should learn.

End of 2006 meant losing something that means everything, under circumstances I wouldn't care to repeat. I wonder how I'd be like if I was put in similar position, or just a small fraction. I wonder if I could be as strong. End of 2006 meant changing my glassy outlook of life, everything in between, and death. It's slightly clearer but there's still a whole lost of dusting to do. End of 2006 meant understanding in my own terms. End of 2006 meant learning how to deal with loss. It meant how much I'd rather face confrontation more than not understanding.

I'd rather my goal be clarity more than anything.

The start of 2007 meant reconciliations. I lost someone once. Miscommunication. And now I hope we can start again, or at least pick up where we left off. Let's talk about life and love and death again. Start of 2007 meant a fresh start and I'm already starting to collect memories. We're at a point in our life when we're almost starting out our own lives. We meaning, those leaving school and trying to start living.

Who is to say we will start living anyway? I am not so sure.

and I would probably be flattered if someone talks about me in past tense. At least I am remembered, and that means a whole lot to me than one can imagine.

Today I was in the car and my brother started talking to me about World Politics. It struck me as odd from how we changed from always bickering to having some of the best conversations in the car. Maybe we finally learned to listen to each other.